Time for a new defibrillator, however…

Hello everyone! It’s been a long while since I posted anything. Not much is new. I moved to Pennsylvania! I am no longer a Jersey girl! Well I am inside haha! Anyhow, it has been 7 years since I got my first ICD implanted. Last visit in the fall, said I still had plenty of battery. No shocks or cardiac arrests have happened so the battery is good and full. So we thought. About 10 days ago, it started beeping! Talk about a strange feeling when you realize something that is beeping and dying, is actually screwed into your heart! It looks like there is a malfunction in mine because it depleted so quickly and so low, that I have 28 days to get it replaced. From what I read, once it beeps there is about 3 to 6 months before it totally dies. Not with me! This has been expedited and they are not sure why. Well, here is the part that has complicated it all; I’m almost 3 months pregnant! No one wants to do surgery on a pregnant woman because of risk to the baby. And that’s exactly right, as my EP told me he WONT replace it now!! Hmm….Type 1, day and night, positive genetics and my father died an early death but let’s leave me without protection for months on end? That doesn’t sound like a plan that will work does it? I understand they want to protect my baby, but If I should die of cardiac arrest,then both of us go! That isn’t an option. I reached out to an EP I saw when I first moved to PA. I left his office because it was a farther distance from my house. However, he will be the one to save the day because he is willing to work around the pregnancy and get me the protection the baby and I need. I have yet to have my appointment with him to go over options with anaesthesia and such, but either way he has a solution. That should be very soon. This should all be wrapped up within a month. I will touch base with all my readers to let you know how it works out, how it was done, the surgery, etc! Remember, the whole point of my blog is more like an online diary. I tell you my experiences, which may or many not be the same as yours. But it’s nice when someone shares their journey so you know you are not alone.And yes, my email is still BrugadaGirl@yahoo.com in case anyone needs to talk. God bless and I will be in touch 🙂

Changes to social media

Hello everyone. It has been awhile. Over the summer I purchased a horse who I spend many days a week with. The barn is my second home. I am practicing what I preach-living my life, without fear! Well, maybe a little fear still, but I push myself everyday and I hope you are too!

With all the news of security and data breaches going around, I decided to deactivate my social media accounts. The only way to connect with me or contact me will be here,by leaving a comment. Or to maintain privacy, sending me a personal email at brugadagirl@yahoo.com

God bless!

But it’s so rare….

This is a vent. I read something this morning that just pissed me off so bad I need to rant about it. On a popular heart awareness site there was an article written about a rare heart disorder. Not Brugada Syndrome, but still rare. I was reading through the comments about the article and I saw a person ask why they were writing an article about something so rare when there are so many people with heart disease. And they went on to say that they should only be writing about heart disease because it was more common. After all, the person commented, only about 1 percent have it…

So you have a website that primarily talks about heart disease and they take a breather and post about a rare heart defect instead and it angers people because its rare? We shouldn’t care or be bothered about rare disease because it doesn’t effect many? We shouldn’t care about a disease or disorder someone else has? Only what we have matters? Well let me tell you lady, rare illness effects those people who DO have the condition!! What selfishness there is in the world today! Everyone is suffering with something but lets make it a popularity contest right? At what point do people start caring about other people? Whether you have something rare or common, its still a disease, a disorder, life changing…oh but no! We cant POSSIBLY talk about the rarity! Lets just sweep our problems under the carpet because not many are effected.We don’t count or matter? I’ve never seen such ignorance. Brugada is rare but that does NOT mean it shouldn’t be discussed, taught, researched, or that it isn’t an issue because less people have it. And I mean ANY rare illness. So angry…

Love you Daddy! 8 years today

What started my whole journey is the lose of my father at 55 today, May 7th. Most people are curious about that very sad day. This is my post from a few years ago. Also, at the end is a link to donate to SADS in his memory. Remember, when you donate to SADS, even through my fathers memorial, I don’t get a cent of it. It all goes to research to Sudden Arrhythmia Death Syndromes (SADS) http://wp.me/P3jgWx-1o

4 Part Series-My Diary

The meat of my blog, which I consider more like a diary, was initially written in 4 parts. But through the years, the posts got lost within all the other posts. People come here to read about my personal experience and have trouble finding it. I’ve listed these essentials in the tab at the top of the blog, ‘Newly Diagnosed.’ Also, here is the link for them http://wp.me/P3jgWx-p8 These posts are a true account of my diagnosis, surgery and recovery and are essential to read to understand me and my memoir. They are raw, intense, sad. Remember…it is MY personal experience. It may not be yours…

4 years since diagnosis

Today is the 4 year anniversary of when I was officially diagnosed. It wasn’t too long after that day that I started this blog. Although I have to say, I never treated it like a blog. I barely write on here. I don’t have photos and links and all that stuff. For me it is a memoir and a diary. I wrote because I felt it was therapeutic. I then decided to share it with hopes that other patients can relate or it would help them through diagnosis, the testing phase, surgery and recovery. And at times, I wish I didn’t have this blog anymore. I start to feel conscious about having my deepest thoughts out here for the world to see. But then I have people contact me and read and say I help them through it all and decide to keep it. I’ve looked over my entries from the last 4 years, and it isn’t many. It’s actual pretty amazing that a blog with only about 50 posts has been viewed the world over with tens of thousands of viewers. They say you can only make it as a blogger if you post often and professionally. But Im not trying to ‘make it’. I stay anonymous. I don’t want fame. I prefer not to be in the lime light. But instead of writing in a hand written diary, I type it up here and publish it. It’s weird, I know. Wanting privacy then publishing! Anyhow, as I look back at my original posts, they are very dark. They are depressing, dramatic and probably unsettling for some readers. I don’t feel now, like I did then. And there is a part of me that says I shouldn’t have those posts up in case it scares the hell out of some people. Sometimes I want to delete them. But then my husband tells me, it’s a journey and it’s important for people to see me change and grow and steady myself through the years. Yes, the beginning posts are sad. They level off and seem ok and go back to an abyss.Back and forth, good days and bad. But I try not to do that as much because I want people to have a normal life and hope. My thoughts for this anniversary, is that I do want people to see how I felt in the beginning but also how I started to accept my diagnosis and kept living and made a little peace with it. I hope whoever reads this understands that this is my diary, my thoughts, my feelings and by no means how everyone will feel. But also, see that with time, the weight of the diagnosis lightens a bit and you CAN move forward. Have I moved completely forward? Not at all. I’ve taken steps forward but I’ll never run, by no means. But you can have some hope and peace, even with Brugada Syndrome, and my online diary/ blog shows it 🙂

My interview for another article for PBS Nova Next

I had an interview with a journalist for PBS Nova Next in regards to genetics and Brugada Syndrome. Possibly in the future, genetic defects can be fixed? Read here: http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/next/body/crispr-and-stem-cells-could-speed-studies-of-rare-diseases/

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